Video blog?

I might start a new blog with only video posts except it would be a daily update kinda thing.

yes or no?

I just find myself having more and more time on my hands

GOT MY BRACES OFF TODAY!

SUCK IT!

Decision making

We all get into binds sometimes. Making a decision between two different things.

The situation I am constantly faced with is heart vs mind.

Mind can be based on fact, plainly what everyone else can see. Mind can also be based on your unaltering thought. (such as a view you have on something. example: politics)

Heart is something you and only you can say for yourself. It's how you feel for something or someone.

Heart and mind can go hand and hand, but it can also contradict one another.

Right now, I am faced with a situation that they cannot agree on.

I'll be flat out and honest though.

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Last Thursday (2/25) was the UNC Jazz Festival where I missed a whole day of school to go perform with my high school's jazz band and watch others perform. It was also the day of me and my boyfriends 2 month. (Just for the record, 2 months doesn't seem very long, but we've been trying to make things work for a longlong time but there has been conflicts getting in our way.) Just that morning he looked in my eyes and told me "Happy 2 month, baby. I love you so much"

Just before warmup at the festival, I got a text from my best friend that said "Tony was smoking pot in the bandroom library." I couldn't believe it at first so I ignored it and left to perform. After the performance, I came back to check my phone where I had gotten 5 new text messages from different people all saying the same thing.

It's bad enough that he was doing drugs, but he lied to me. A few nights before, we had talked about this. He asked me "What if I started smoking pot again?" I made him promise he wouldn't. He SWORE to me that he wouldn't. He thought that if I wasn't at school that day, he could get away with it. He lied to me and went behind my back...

Yes, he got suspended. Yes, this is all 100% true.

Now my mind is telling me to leave him because he lied to me, went behind my back and did drugs at that.

But my heart can't let him go. I love him...I've never felt this way about anyone before. Tony makes me feel like a belong in someone's life, he makes me so much happier than I've ever been.

My friends side with my mind

I, alone, side with my heart.

1/23/10

It wasn't until about a week and a half ago that I found out that my really close friend was moving. I had known that he was moving for months now, but I didn't know when.

Today, he took that plane flight to California. I never thought this day would come; it seemed so far away a few months ago, but now I won't see him for another year or so. 

Today was such a bummer, even if we spent our last hour together eating cookie dough. It's supposed to make you feel better, but I still couldn't help but bawl my eyes out when he left.

HOW TO BE SCENE HANDBOOK

1. Skinny Jeans
   
2. Own atleast one pair of Converse
   
3. Write music
   
4. Call everyone else a poser
   
5. Be yourself, and by yourself we mean, copy Mary
   

I fucking love Saif Hassan !

-Jus sayin'-

Saif Nabil Hassan

Hello Winterbreak.

I'm hanging out with my best friend, Saif right now. So he wanted to show me his own blog and told me to make one. It turns out that I already had one and it was really fucking lame. LOL. It was stuff from when I was in 7th grade and I was talking shit about everyone and talked about my bird and yeah. It was ugly.

So now I've decided to redo everything and Saif here is going to help me with my first post.

Saif: I got a text message!

Ohhwahwahadiddoooo- That's the sound he makes when he stretches.

Saif is legitimately my best friend. Last year, we didn't really kick things off to begin with. I mean, we talked, but it was strictly online. But then one night, sometime after All-District, some drama and shit happened and I decided to tell him about what had happened. He was just so trusting in that way and he was there to listen. Later he began trusting me as well, and from that point on, we became closer and closer. We started talking more in school and from there on, began hanging out in and out of school. It was fantastic. Except...once we had graduated middle school and summer was almost over, it hit me so hard; Saif and I were going to different high schools. I had seen this coming for a while, but I tried ignoring it and it finally came back to slap me in the face. But now, itsK. We still hang out, we still see eachother, and we still talk. I still trust him with my life and soul and I can still call him my best friend. I love himm <3

-Jus sayin'-